To what or whom do you have a difficult relationship with?

 

"To what or whom do you have a difficult relationship with?" asked my card (We're Not Really Strangers Card Game)

Food. It's true, I answered food. I have never enjoyed food for such a long time, I always feel restricted, I always I am being restrictive...then my sickness happened, now everyone's telling me to stop drinking coffee, the only thing that makes me happy. They always say the same thing, even the psychiatrist. 

August, August, August. All I can remember in August is just being sick. Chills and fever due to vax at 2nd week, my ear infection on 3rd week, then to close the month of August, the 3 in 1 infection - - urine infection, amoeba and blood infection. 

I'm not very good at taking meds in general, that's why I buy vitamins and take a while to actually build a habit of finally taking them in. To be honest, with all the medicines I am taking now, I feel kind of high and...I don't know, I feel heavy even more. My head feels like something in it wants to explode but at the same time my skull is trying to counteract that. My gums, yes, upper and lower, join the aching party as well, all of a sudden, they are aching for some reasons that I don't know, I'd like to think it's all part of my medication. 

I honestly just want to feel physically better. I feel burdened having to move my schedules and have someone to cover me up on all my commitments. 

One thing that humbled me so much with all of these are the people around me who are praying for me and sent me warm messages, first of all, my family, my closest friends, even my school mates, and lastly the church. They really took time to chat and call me, asked how I was doing and even checked in on me again after some time. Wow. I wanted to think somehow I amount to something but honestly, they are just bunch of amazing people, and I needed that encouragement. 

I promise to serve you all in my lifetime. I promise.