That one good thing about pandemic

One afternoon, with a friend, she said, "You know actually, there was a good thing that I got from this pandemic."

"Yeah?"

"Somehow the world stopped for everyone. Before pandemic I was so pressured with how everyone is accomplishing things at this age, travelling and stuff and me? Nothing, but when pandemic happened and everyone is restricted to go out, to achieve things easily, it was a relief for me. I felt at one point, we are all on the same boat."

I looked at her and smiled my thoughts to her, that I felt the same. It may sound insensitive, but somehow this pandemic broke all the major stressors in my life. Life pressures in the physical realm toned down a bit, but as a result, my emotional and mental battles went up. 

One of which is the overwhelming energy of people around me. I'd rather go out with introvert friends or just by myself than being around the extroverts. They're energy is too much for me, even virtually. 

I literally felt like my body and mind aged. 

To be honest, I'm afraid for that day to come, that everything will be back to normal, coz it means, a humongous responsibilities waiting for me again to take.

I sometimes wished to just be the weaker person, to be the simpler one, the slower one, the less responsible one, the less capable one...because it is so tiring all these responsibilities. At least if I was the weaker, I don't have to live up a life with such high expectations like this. 

I wish I can act stupid for a day without disappointing people 

xx