God does speak

God does speak to us

He spoke to me that night I had to write you a letter because you're about to give up. I tried to ignore it a couple of times because that's not very comfortable to do but I cannot not do it. 

He spoke to me that day I had to put a hand up for the first time in front of so many people. It was the turning point of life. 

He spoke to me that day where I need to connect to you out of nowhere. I did think about it so much before doing it, looking back, it led to a big change. 

He spoke to me when I overheard the person in front of me in the cashier line felt short of cash. She was looking so uncomfortable but glad I saw a relief after. 

He spoke to me when I needed to apologise for being so insensitive over your feelings, He knew I struggle apologising to things I am persuaded I have not done wrong but He said I have to do it. 

He spoke to me about forgiveness, that it is possible to give it when you didn't apologise. 

He spoke to me when I felt disappointed because you weren't the person I expected you to be, I felt stupid feeling upset over your weakness, I thought I was really being unreasonable because I put expectations on you that you didn't know. 

He spoke to me about overcoming my anger because you've hurt my loved one. I wanted to say so many hurtful things, but he has preserved me by keeping me quiet and still. 

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At 23, I wanted to quit and die because You have become so quiet in my life. You have withdrawn happiness in me since then. Now that I'm 28, I still do and have always been looking forward my death, but death shouldn't become my escape anymore but a finish line. I wanna work towards that finish line. I anticipate it, and I want it to be my motivation to do everything for Your glory. 

Life is too short, I could literally be gone in a snap of a finger, who knows