People around me lately

I avoided looking at his face because he was so frustrated and disappointed. I couldn't look into his eyes coz I know I can't help, but I still tried, out of awkwardness, to, at least, be there. 

I've been wanting to send her a message for about weeks now but I didn't know what to say, I just wanted to message her. Ended up me receiving a message instead from her today. 

He was so polite talking to me, and he makes sure he's the last one to reply, and I still, feel upset over something he has no involvement. He's trying so hard to make sure I'm okay, I feel bad that I can't fully open up. 

She's such a sweetheart, I wish I could have the same passion. She's always accepting and understanding, and exhibits a high respect towards people. Honestly want to know her more. 

-

-

-

-

-

These days, I've been focusing my energy on the things I am grateful for - the real people around me. 

The last few weeks were such a pain, although I want to say more about that, I choose to keep things to myself as I don't think it will benefit me. I don't wanna feed my mind with such disappointments when I did not create it in the first place. I don't need to feel upset over other people's pretentious behaviours. I used to feel bad about it coz I feel like I don't deserve to know the truth, but now, heck I care. I shouldn't reap what I didn't sow. 

It's true, no matter how extravagant things are, how good people can seem to be, how ideal the environment is, if it doesn't point to Christ, it's futile. 

Good values are just filthy rugs without God at the foundation.